I have not written in my blog for a LONG time! I have thought many times that I would get out of the blogging scene for a while. I'm still unsure! Lately, it has been too painful to write in it. You see, my Mom used to be my most faithful reader. She used to tell me how my blogs brought her great joy. She loved reading about the kids and seeing their pictures. Now my Mom is gone...on August 5
th she left us for her new home (Heaven). I miss her very much! Daily I think of her and wish I could just call her, visit with her, go for a walk with her, shop with her, or share my life with her. She was truly my friend! I wrestle constantly with a deep sense of loss over her friendship and a mysterious joy over knowing she is at peace. Even though it has been over a month since she passed away, I still find myself suddenly thinking I need to call her, and then quickly remembering reality. Never again will I see her sweet precious face, never again will I hear her words of love, never again will I hear her call my name, never again will I receive a warm hug from her open arms, and never again will a sit next to her and share our lives together. Never again...here on earth! Never again seems pretty hopeless when you don't have Heaven. I am so thankful for that hope! Hope that I will see my Mom again someday!
Tonight I'm pondering over this blog. What should I do next? Should I stop? Should I make changes on it? Start a new one? Is there purpose in even keeping a blog? Is this just a waste of my time (time I don't have much of)? Am I even the blogging type?? If any one out there has any deep insight they would like to share. I am open ears! Thanks!